Shyrkon

I work in a Hospital, I work as a male nurse. When I first began my journy to help people, to really help people, it was more like a romantic dream which I lived, today, its like 6 Months ago, I see alot of things clearer, maybe wiser than before. Forget about the dramatic shit of Emergency Room or Chicago Hope, forget about House M.D. reality couldnt be futher away. I saw things, I couldnt even imagine, theres no dramtic music playing at your final seconds, theres no nice thoughts or heroism, you know what most people say? - Most people are afraid of dying, most people cry, most people beg and pray to you to save them, to help them keep on

dont talk here that often anymore, but well, should get up to it again. Anyways, I work in a greek restaurant now, sometimes its nice, sometimes its the pure horror. It just depens on how many people wanna eat or drink shit. And thats what I wanna talk about now; There were a few things which catched my eye: 1.) When People eat, it looks awful, I never watched it really intense but most people eat with an unbelivable arrogance and selfishness, as if the food they get would be born, suffer and die just for them. After I noticed this, I just cant stand watching people eating stuff anymore, makes me sick. 2.) Restaurants, Bars, whatever, or

Piep, piep, piep 6.00AM in the morning, again just slept 4hours. Its one of these mornings. Slowly I get up, actually I dont want to, fight with myself. I dont feel like. Although I stand up, my body feels mat and powerless, I drag myself to the coffee, boot my computer, get fast something to eat, don't forget about the teethbrush. My hair fly in all directions, my eyerings're darker than my coffee. Then I sit infront of my computer and read Spiegel-Online. Read how many people had to die this night in case of techniacal defects, human failure or just because it works. In my head its echoing the one questions thats it there for serval ye